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If he lets me practice driving on his car to get a license to get a job?
I’m VERY, VERY sick of him! I have anxiety & nervous breakdowns EVERY night b/c of him.
To make a long story short, our whole family has had issues even before I was born. I was in a life or death crisis last yr., & he sent me from NY ALL the way to TX, just to use me to pay ALL his bills. I didn’t know he was gonna do that to me, since he never spends time with family members. I didn’t ask to come down here. He URGED me to come down here. I almost died last yr., & he didn’t care. Well, I got tired of him misusing, abusing, & enslaving me, so I got my own place. He got mad b/c I didn’t want him taking care of me. He thinks I’m retarded. But I have my 4-yr. college degree.
We didn’t speak for a while. He had a computer with internet access. When he came to my house & saw me online, he INTENTIONALLY turned off his internet service, just to freeload off of mine. It’s clear that he can’t STAND me & that he hates my guts. He snoops through my private files & webpage history IN FRONT MY FACE! & when I tell him about it, he wants to blame it on my OCD & saying I’m starting my s#it. & he also tries to hack my acct. passwords, & he floods my computer with viruses & trojan horses with those gay sites.
He even told me to my face that he doesn’t give a damn about me & that he wishes I was never born. I tried to talk to him about this, & he got hostile. I was intimidated. He is THAT desperate to throw me off my OWN computer, just so he can try to control it & take over it. He’s a control freak. He wants to try to control everything. He’s been driving for over 20 yrs., & STILL has poor driving skills, & he’s a wreckless driver. Now, when I drive the SPEED limit, he wants to try to tell me to slow down. This was when I had my car yrs. ago. & when I drive 5mph below, he says I’m gonna get a ticket for driving too slow. He does that on purpose, just to try to throw me off the wheel of my OWN car, so HE can be in control & drive. He’s a VERY poor driver.
Now, here, I’m trapped in a racist, small town with no jobs & hardly any transportation. He kept yelling @ me for not moving here. He recently confessed to me that he thinks Dallas is the best place to be b/c that’s where all the gays are. I’m not a lesbian. But he tries to call me a dyke. I can’t FORCE a man to date me. I just stay single & to myself. I have social anxiety.
I HAD a license, but they said that I had to take the driving test process ALL over again since I was a new resident. & damn near every job requires you to have a license & insurance, here. I’m very stressed because I have no way to get a license again. He has me feeling trapped here. I have no money to move.