Warning (lol): This probably seems kind of strange, but I just feel so lost on the relationship department! :’(
I have never been in an actual relationship where I can call the other guy my boyfriend. Its all I truly want in life, as pathetic as that sounds. My life is amazing, a ton of awesome friends, a great family, really nice house, car, etc. but theres just one thing missing. I feel as if I will only be complete once I’ve found a great boyfriend. I know this is a typical feeling, but it has been bothering my so much for over 6 months. Ive dated guys and they all end up being liars and jerks. I know I am a great guy w/ alot to offer & all I want is a mature relationship, but it seems like most guys (especially my age) just want to have fun. I really dont know any gay guys who arnt sluts, huge partiers, etc. so I’ve resorted to online. After numerous dates, there always seems to be something wrong with them & i just cant bring myself to settle for just anyone.
So I feel pretty upset right now after something just happened with this one guy, who yet again turned out to be a liar…
anyway I have a few questions I guess so sorry if this seems kind of random, I jsut dont know who else to go too..
Would you consider yourself a decent guy with good looks, good morals, who dosnt sleep around, dosnt drink/do drugs/smoke, has a good fun personality & respect for other guys? I’m just starting to wonder if theres anyone out there whos gay with those few qualities that mean so much to me.. or am I the only gay guy out there like this, becuase thats what it seems like 
also, what are good places I can find decent guys? I live in the chicago area, but I am not old enough to go to gay clubs because they are all 21 and over by me.. plus the guys are usually just looking for a fun time & nothing more. are there maybe any decent websites or anything? ( I hate resorting to online but theres no where else i know)
this really was a a strange post, but if you took the time to read this, thanks so much & all the answers I can get would be awesome