I just did someting i already regret. Im such a mess, even after one year.
My story: In a nutshell, my life went down hill when i got married to a foreign spouse and we ended up having a farce of a marriage when we werent living in the same country. We also had a child and now, he is 3.5 years of age. However, last year things came to a head and she decided to divorce me and said many things to really crush me. Then, i found out she was trying to date online and she told me, it was because she wanted to practice english but i knew this wasnt true because i read her advert and it made it clear she was looking for a new partner. I was so angry and upset last year i sent a text to her vowing to never communicate to her or my son and i havent heard from her since.
I dont profess to be perfect and i made many mistakes, but am i really such a low life, so unimportant. Im broken.
After nearly 1 year, i gave into the trauma in my mind and just sent this e-mail:
“You are free of the hassle that is Christian Gee. Good work. Congratulations. The hassle that i am ( drinking ? No Drugs ? No Other women ? No Criminal behaviour ? No beating his wife ? No Evidence of hurting children ? NO…..)
He is so so bad ( he made mistakes, he said things, he has regrets)
So, what to do ? Give up…..go online dating and get a new one. Get another hassle ! why not ? You dont like your car, buy another one. you dont like your man ? get another one ! this is the answer, this is the solution to life !! ( was it in the 2 wedding vows ???)
Christian is in the Rubbish, he is nothing.
Replace the father ! ”
I feel even more messed up than i did 9 months ago. I cant recover from this situation. I try to get over it but i never seem to get past the start post.
