I met this girl online a few months ago and we clicked from the start. She’s lesbian, I’m bi. We communicate through text, calls and messages online and have met in person a couple times. In the time since we first met, she ended it with an ex, had a rebound, ended that, and has finally decided to move on from the first ex. Now she’s single and “dating.” I waited a bit because I didn’t want to smother her during a vulnerable time, but a few days ago finally told her I like her and want to date her. This was her response:
“its like.. i don’t even know what to say anymore. i like you as a friend, yes. there could have possibly been something more at one point.. but the more i thought about it the more i realized i didnt want to put myself in that situation. you don’t know what it is you want, you’ve said that countless times. i’m just not interested in being that person. there’s nothing wrong with you as a person, and it may not seem fair but i just don’t want to be your first. i don’t want to upset you and i want to continue talking to you. i want to be your friend.. maybe even find someone for you. at first i just really feel like you should date plenty of people, see whats out there. see what it is you want.”
I never said I don’t know what I want in regards to relationships, just that I’m confused with my future as far as jobs and where I plan on settling is concerned. She’s 25 and settled into her job situation and I’m 23 and have yet to start. The above message then turned into her saying she was never interested in dating me and I’ve only been considered a “friend” through all of this, even though she did say she liked me at one point.
Anyway, do you think she’s scared of me hurting her because I have no experience? Or is she generally just not interested in dating me and that was her nice way of letting me down? And how do I take from this experience and move on since it seems to be impossible to date her now? If every girl I encounter decides they can’t date me because I lack experience, I’ll never date. Somebody has to give me a chance somewhere and I refuse to sleep around for sleeping around’s sake!