Online Dating Blog

Well… Where do I start?..
When I was 13 I was in a summer camp and on a dance party I met a girl and we really liked each other and stuff, but since we were both sort of shy we didn’t get a chance to even kiss so yeah.
Later, when I was about 14 I really liked a girl from school, she was about half a year younger than me, which I always thought was perfect… Anyway I always was chatting and flirting with her online, and always trying to find her at school and stuff, and even once went bowling with her and her friends. She didn’t really say ANYTHING that would be on a subject “i like you” to me, and didn’t really seem to have any feelings towards me, which I thought was ok really, because she was shy and not very open-minded and stuff. Well long story short, I was trying to get her to like me for about a year. I also tried to get attention of two other girls at that time, which also failed.
The interesting I might add that I noticed is that I drink alcohol and they never did, it just so happens that girls of my taste don’t drink or smoke and always have good grades. Weird. I also started smoking over a year ago. From the incident with the girl from my school and on, I never even looked at girls, because I thought I would fail and it’s always been just a waste of time.
What I’d like to see here are some tips on dating and stuff, because most of my friends already had girlfriends and even sex, so I think it’s time for me to do so too. Not like I’m rushing or anything, but still. I should also add that I never came up to girls just for sex, or for sex at all, I always liked romance far more. I just wish to finally have a girlfriend, you know?
PS – one more thing, if a girls likes me and I see that, it’s like 95% chance that I won’t find her attractive, just like when I like some girl
Sorry for my english, I’m russian just so you know