Online Dating Blog

I would appreciate not having any rude comments from strait people. It really gets on my nerves.
I am 18. I have been open about being a lesbian since I was 15. I have had 2 serious relationships and a lot of non serious ones. Lately it has been all non serious. I have actually only felt a real connection with one person. I don’t know if it’s me or them.
A lot of my strait friends tell me if they were gay, I would be everything they would want. I mean not to brag on myself but I am awesome. I’m good looking, i’m very romantic, I have a lot of goals in life that will soon make me very successful, I have so many great qualities.
My biggest problem is I am shallow. I focus on looks before anything else. I don’t care what people think, I want my girl to be at least really cute. But I always end up with some one immature, or a *****. I tried dating older people and it felt weird. At 18, I am open to dating people from 14-20.
I know this is really confusing and i’m just blabbering on and probably confusing you but i’m just tired of being alone. What should I do? Please do not suggest dating websites because their crap. I have tried them and only found freaks. I have hooked up with a girl I met online and it was the biggest mistake I ever made. I have considered 2 other girls I met online my girlfriend. But it didn’t work. Since I am soon to be graduated and I am 18 I am more open to long distance relationship for now, I live in Louisiana, but really all I want for the moment is just some one to talk to that is like me. Right now, I am alone in my world and I just want a pretty, white girl that is a lesbian to talk to. Any suggestions? I aint desperate but I would even settle for some one off here.