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My wife seldom hit me, but her abuse was nonstop and vicious. She has used her tongue and mind to harm my life in ways an enemy wouldnt even stoop to doing. I have repeatedly demonstrated that I loved this woman more than any man could love, and she used my kind heart, dedication and love to hurt me beyond belief.
To make it clear, I wanted a family so badly, that i married a woman 3000 miles away I met online. I didnt know she was so bad, addicted to Rx drugs, or so very pretty.
1. She called police and said I abused her, after I found out she went to Canada with a rockstar, and a note to another man saying she loved him. Luckily I had entire encounter on tape, and cops didnt arrest me as she asked
2. She filed false divorce documents saying I contributed $3,000, when it was $178,000…She stopped divorce, and we got back together
3. Upon catching her writing other men, she destroyed my computer files containing #1s adultry, so I told her to go home to FL. Weeks later I found out she said I beat her to a doctor and family, making it impossible for me to move in with her.
4. She told me she waned to be a model and singer, then told me she had to write every man on myspace, and put up pix in skimpy outfits. As a Christian, this has hurt my soul. For sake of marriage and love, I said ok to keep her happy, even though it seemed sinful to me.
5. She signed my name for a loan to get plastic surgery, taking this 110lb woman with DD boobs, to a FF.
6. I found this out the day of surgery, as I Iearned she was in Mexico getting procedure done. I flew down to help her get thru surgery, then asked her about loan a few days later upon recovery. We had a fight over that and other guys she was writing, Next day in CA, she destroyed my computer again(contained more of her adultry), then yelled boody murder. Cops came, she was bleeding from surgery. she told them to arrest me on violence. They did, then let me go a few day later without saying a word, cause they didnt believe her.
7. A week later, I got another computer and checked her myspace. She turned it into a sexual dating site, filled with love notes and sexual comments. I got a dui at 8 am next morning.
8. I tell her Im going to file forgery charges, she starts being nice, and we make up. I told her I wouldnt check myspace anymore, cause we just fight too much about the things she writes men. We had 3 good months, until she started being strangely mean. I go onto myspace, and see that she was writing blogs about me beating her. My coworkers were on her friends list and could read these lies. She was telling a country music star she adored him and how hot he was in many letters and comments.
9. Though this is not in sequence, thruout marriage she wrote me about 8000 of the most horrible text imaginable. I still have not read 1,154 of them that are stored on my computer. they were so mean and insane, that I couldnt sleep, was hurting my job performance, and sometimes made me drink. I am a recovering alcoholic and was sober for 10 1/2 years until the night of #1.
10. We seem to make up, I continue sending her about 3/4(800) of my paycheck a week to pay for her house and living. In order to do that, I never bought clothes, made sack lunches and never ate out, stopped playing golf and never had fun. The only thing I bought was clothes for her modeling shoots every week, cameras and gear for photography. I had so many money making inventions and ideas, but only contributed to her modeling dream. The only thing I ever asked my distant wife for, was a 5 minute goodmorning and goodnight call, which she hardly ever did, instead I got about 40 crazy mean text while I was at work.
11. When her text became so absurdedly mean, I quickly took off work and flew to Florida. It took me 3 days to get there tho, cause I had trouble finding a flight I could afford. She learned about it, because she broke into my email(as usual), and saw itenarary. She had time to clean up. Strangely tho, on my 3rd day there, laying beside her bed, I found 4 pix with her and the man from #1 kissing. She was wearing a shirt I bought her, and my ring on wrong finger, so we were married. I was so hurt, because she always said she was faithful, just wrote stupid stuff from nievity. I took pix of pix, showing the date, which was 2 days before I left florida. I didnt tell my wife I found pix until I was at airport entrance. We had a great time together, and she wanted me to stay longer. When i told her about pix, she didnt flinch, make a face, show expression at all. I told her i forgave her, and loved her, all with a kiss and a smile. I told her I wanted to move home though. Half way home, I received a text. thinking it was an apology i was happy. No, she said i was a pervert because I looked thru her kids underwear drawer. they were at dads, and I searched house after i found pix.
12. She was still sending me terrible text, and I was crying. couldnt believe this from a woman who cheated, and I