What Is Wrong With Me?

My life has not been that long, but at 17 all my friends had at least 7 girlfriends. I had none. And its not that I am ugly, shy, or else. It is just that my life didn’t work out the way it should have been. I am a pretty smart and cool kid. From the very early times I can remember my teenage life or my ‘kid’ life, I just didn’t meet that many girls. A lot of my friends were dating when they were like 12; and I can clearly remember myself at that age thinking: ” oh yep, my time is still gonna come, i am gonna grow older, bigger, smarter, cuter….girls will just fall for me.” So there i was. I was 14 and a half, still no girlfriend. I lived in Europe (i am not gonna specify the country). Had almost a great life with many friends that i trusted, and still do. However at the age of 15 i had to move to the USA. my life changed dramatically. I learned English, as you can see. Didn’t take me that long as you can see. So i studied, and lived here for two years. I have never been to soph hop, nor snowball, nor prom. I am a senior now. 17 years old. And it begins to concern me a lot. I don’t have as many friends in school that i can really trust. I have no girls that i could talk to every day. Therefore, who am I going to go to the prom, choose a suit, etc if I don’t even know any. I am a guy, with a european-british and a bit australian accent. not very tall, and not very short. I work out daily. I run 3 miles at 4 am every other day. I am really confused. This even brings microscopic tears to my eyes. Tears of regret and misunderstanding. I wish i would have done something different with my life. I am mature. I never ask anyone for help, i do everything on my own. And in school when i see some jerk, that swears every other word, and looks like crap, talking to another, very cute girl; and then driving her home. I just can’t do anything with myself. I simply dont understand. Is it because i dont have a car? Well, I cant have one. I have passed my permit, dont have a license yet, and I study, because future is very important, therefore i dont work, therefore i dont have money for a car. My parents aren’t rich or anything, but sometimes they buy clothes for me, so i am not worried about my looks. Help me out in here. I smell good too. I read mens health magazine ever since i became concerned about my relationship life. I read tips for dating online a lot. I cant seem to do anything to atleast be friends with a girl, not just be her boyfriend. Thanks for all replies, i really appreciate them.

1 comment to What Is Wrong With Me?

  • S M I L E

    Okay. You sound like a nice person, so just LOOSEN UP. Don’t always be SO mature, be funny, calm down with the whole ‘worried’ thing. You will find someone no doubt, so don’t worry. When you wanna talk to girl, just..talk, about anything. Say “Hey” “What’s up?” to the girl that sits next to you in some of your classes. Be outgoing, throw a party. Go to the movies with some friends, you might just find a cute girl there and you can be friends with her or you can flirt. I really think you have to loosen up, don’t be so stiff, I’m sorry if I sound harsh. Just randomly talk to girls, smile, laugh when they do something funny.
    I hope I helped.
    :)

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